whine

days like these, i don't feel good about myself.
it doesn't feel good to be me
and i am honest about it.
when i try to work on my academics, my mind just wander back to things i don't want to think about.

i am more or less done with you altogether.
i figured if i can get over those thoughts and feelings so easily, probably they aren't strong or worst case scenario, real to begin with.

it is days like this when i am emo-ing about life
where i feel like i want to just complain to friend
but friend has his life as well.
friend will meet princess charming and friend will fall in love and get married
then i will have no more of friend left.
reality, scary but inevitable
sometimes i wonder how great it is if friend can be replaced with a new one
but then dear friend is so unique, it is almost impossible.
friend never fails to remind me about my good points
but at the same time, blatantly lay out my horrible points to my face.
sigh friend, why does my life suck?
friend replies, "that's because you are such a little bitch"
i know he's right.

i am only emo-ing here because friend isn't replying
friend is busy with princess charming must be :D